Saturday, April 28, 2007

On Hiatus..........

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

'night, Mother

I found this play understatedly beautiful, disturbing and almost something that I didn’t want to discuss.

The play wasn’t as shocking as plays like Fifth of July yet the impact, dysfunction, and underlying messages were just as strong. The speech was beautifully normal in the sense that I could relate to it and hear it. The way the conversation was held in such a civilized manner and the simple words used to express the situation almost added additional suspense and internal pressure.

The thing that caught my attention the most was how uncomfortable I felt hearing, reading, experiencing and feeling the unhappiness of Jessie. I didn’t really want to actually write this about this play instead I kind of wanted to leave it alone quietly out of respect for Jessie like she wanted after passing.

I felt humiliated for Jessie because she felt humiliated and shameful of herself. It is unfortunate that she had a medical condition that she has no control over. To completely submit your physical well being to a condition left Jessie helpless and a victim in her own body and was just another blow in addition to her other problems. To imagine what it feels like to be an adult woman that has to be cleaned up after soiling on myself in front of everyone and carried to my bed by a sibling that I loathe would me feel even more incompetent and resentful.

I don’t quite understand completely why Jessie has such harsh feelings toward her brother or other people around her. I understand that you just don’t get along with some people and it is understandable to not like people who don’t treat you well but overall I don’t see her life being harder than an average individual and in fact I think she grew up pretty blessed in a middle class family.

Maybe the sickness made Jessie further unstable or growing up not being support, nurtured and encouraged by a mother figure resulted in Jessie growing up into a unstable, weak, and insecure adult woman unable to keep a husband and raise a child. But it would be irresponsible for me to put all the blame on Jessie for her unsuccessful marriage.

Another thing that is interesting to me is that the whole exchange between Jessie and her mother is a mental game/battle BUT you would think these are the two worst people to be mentally battling; an elderly woman and an unstable woman going through midlife crisis. Contrary to my previous statements it is obvious that these women are very sharp mentally. Jessie is so sharp that she has planned her death, a suicide, how it will be carried out, and how life after her will go on. Thelma manages to surprise us all by pulling many little secrets out of bag that shock even her daughter who she has been caring for, and coming up with very great tactics to save her life.

Annie Get Your Gun

Debuting at the Imperial Theatre on Broadway in New York City on May 16, 1946, Annie Get Your Gun was the most successful show for both composer Irving Berlin and actress/comedian and singer Ethel Merman.

The tale of a sharpshooting country girl who falls in love with the handsome star of the Buffalo Bill’s Wild West Show includes love, comedy, action and of course song & dance. What is most impressive to me is how the beautiful, classic music & lyrics by Irving Berlin are marvelously weaved throughout the play effortlessly contributing to the feeling of the overall scene rather than creating a spectacle for the sake of ticket sales.

For 1147 performances Ethel Merman & Ray Middleton wowed the crowd with their love triangle that all began after Annie Oakley (Ethel Merman) spotted the handsome Frank Butler (Ray Middleton) in a hotel lobby when his show had arrived in town. Mystified by his good city looks unsophisticated Annie tries her best to get his attention while lending her amazing skills to the same Wild West Show, but soon she learns that a “girly girl” is what he desires.

After instant success and many hours spent together the hearts of Frank Butler & Annie Oakley finally begin to find their way to each other. Unfortunately the competitor in Annie ruins the short bliss and Frank leaves the show angry for being upstaged by Annie when she really intended to impress him.

When the broke down Wild West show returns to New York City after a disappointing European run Annie runs into Frank at a soiree thrown to secretly combine the Wild West show & the competitors that Frank performed for. When both parties realize they are as poor off as the other they are informed by Chief Sitting Bull that if they sell the beautiful, European, jeweled medals that adorn Annie’s gown the shows can be saved. The thought of being reunited with her love, Annie happily obliges with the sell and merger of both shows.

Of course the happy love story doesn’t end there as Annie gets herself into another competition with Frank but after discovering Frank’s sister tampering with her gun she is reminded that “You Can’t Get a Man with a Gun”.

Produced by the innovative Producers Richard Rodgers & Oscar Hammerstein II, Irving Berlin was not the 1st choice as composer of the show but after Jerome Kern collapsed and died, Irving was brought in. Originally directed by Joshua Logan and book by Herbert & Dorothy Fields, the 1999 revival starring Bernadette Peters won a Tony for Best Revival (Musical).

Annie Oakley – Mezzo (low #G to D)

Birdbath by Leonard Melfi

At first looks Birdbath appeared to be a play about 2 “down & out” young adults who find solace within each other but upon further review there are many more problems.

Obviously shy, timid, repressed, and traditional among other words I used to describe Velma Sparrow during my CSI, it was easier to judge her “personality” through her behavior and words. As a student I know that there is WAY more to Velma; why is she the way she is, what happened to her, how does she see herself, how is she perceived by others, what does her behavior mean, etc.

I have to start at the beginning. Why is Velma the way she is? One would think that your behavior, personality, mannerisms, etc. are a product of your upbringing and your environment. Velma Sparrow was raised by her very condescending; traditional, unfulfilled mother who I feel from infancy raised her only daughter to be the delicate bird she is. Velma’s mother constantly puts her daughter down “Velma, you take advantage of that free meal.” She wouldn’t want her (young) daughter to stay skinny and not attract a man (I guess her mother didn’t take being deserted by her husband too well).

This insecurity (her appearance, mate worries) is so deep for Velma that it is literally on the 1st page of the play, about the 12th comment she says to the “high-class” Frankie upon meeting him for the 1st time. So within her 1st conversation and 1st comments she already comments on Frankie’s looks, puts his looks above hers, and talks about her downfalls per her mother. I was told that the thing that people persecute in others is really an expression of their own security. This anecdote proves true for Velma as she constantly brings up topics dealing with looks (hers, her brothers & Frankie’s), her mother’s opinion on looks, and of course her obsession with celebrities whether is it in the newspapers or working at the Merry-Go-Round Club, which was her favorite job before she fired for not being pretty enough. It is quite ironic that her mother’s final outcome is a mirror of the same stories that they praise in the tabloid newspapers. Reading tabloids isn’t the main problem because we all have a fascination and almost shallow obsession with celebrities (I’m an acting student) but you are supposed to know that the tabloids aren’t reality. Unfortunately Velma was never raised strong, taught to love herself or be strong by her mother thus the little fragile bird used the same poison that killed her against her mother.

Was Velma’s mother resentful of being left by her husband thus she took that frustration our on her children both Velma & Herbert? When Velma’s mother sees her children does she see her husband and that is why she thinks Velma is ugly? It is apparent that Herbert was praised as being handsome but even that favor would not keep him around the sour home. Maybe Velma’s mother is genuinely concerned for her daughter because she doesn’t want the same thing to happen to Velma that happened to her. If Mrs. Sparrow is concerned, her concern turned from something healthy into something crippling that kept her 26 year old daughter an immature, inexperienced, nervous, insecure, fragile being unable to hold a job, relationship or regular conversation. Thus Velma always feels vulnerable & responsible to be whatever her mother needs her to be; breadwinner, attractive. It is amazing that some so fragile is yet so responsible and almost strong, strong enough to support her family, travel back and forth between the Bronx alone and harm her mother. Once again I think that the manipulation by her mother is the only thing that could keep this able child from realizing that she is indeed decent and could be desired by someone like Frankie.

Velma is: timid, anxious, evasive, insecure, inexperienced, abandoned, empty, idealistic, desperate, curious, and thoughtful.

Uncommon Women & Others by Wendy Wassertein

I am not sure if I am supposed to do this or not but I read another book by Wendy Wasserstein, in fact I still have another I want to read. I understand that I need to branch out and experience the work of others but when I am intrigued by someone I must fully research them until I feel fulfilled.

As you probably know by now I am a Mount Holyoke College graduate so it is very interesting for me to read Wendy’s perception or fiction of the school, based in the past. The traditions of the school are quite remarkable and the way they are weaved in is very satisfying for me and maybe even someone who didn’t attend. Those little touches like “Milk and Crackers”, “Gracious Dinners” add character to the environment to compliment the quirks of the characters. I love the intros with the male voice prefacing the acts and talking about the women in a generalized, societal tone and then the act comes and completely shreds the political correctness of the preface.

Like I have said in past reports it is amazing how the plays we read from the past, taking place in the past are still relevant today = how not advanced we are as humans (not technology or accomplishments) but as human beings, intellectually & emotionally. The characters in this play are so interesting and so different yet they all have similar concerns, insecurities, fears, pleasures and needs whether it is evident or not.

It is amazing to me how advanced the characters are for the 70’s; talking about penises, sex (Rita gets great Head??), power, gender, homosexuality, etc. I cant really pin-point who I would be if I were one of the characters or what role I would like to explore. Upon further reflection I am not sure if I even know any of these characters personally. They are so complex yet of course they all have traits that I can relate to. To fully understand everything I have to read the beginning again to see how it relates to the past. It is funny how all of the women are still similar to their younger selves.

Even though I went to the school they attend they still carry a certain elitist air that I don’t feel I have or could even play. I don’t even think I could imagine these characters as anything but white but maybe it has to do with the time and maybe that is how people spoke back then?

I could possibly relate to the work ethic, escapism, introvert, and insecurities of Leilah and to channel that area of my being and turn into an inner person might be a great challenge.

I definitely don’t think I am brave enough to play Rita, her character takes balls that I do NOT have.

There is something that draws me to Kate, maybe it is the way she perceives herself and they way others talk about her. I would love for people to look at me like they look at her and maybe they do. Maybe I am more like her then I would like to admit because I am well accomplished but I don’t look at myself in such a straight manner.. I think am more quirky although I identify with her concerns and the pressure she feels to have a certain image and how it affects the people around her (the flack she gets).

I would like to be someone like Samantha who could play the background and be satisfied. To live my life through someone else and be happy and proud would be a great feeling and such a relief of a burden called life.

Susie is very cute with her eagerness, excitement, and youth.

I also admire the youthfulness of Muffet. She has a great spirit.

There is a definite theme having to do with kids and career women, sexist society, that was also in The Heidi Chronicles.

The Heidi Chronicles

I would love to jump right into my thoughts on this play but I have to mention that it is so sad to see that Wendy Wasserstein is no longer here with us, but it is great to know that her work is still here for us to enjoy. Go Mount Holyoke College!!! It is shameful on my side that once again another playwright has passed before I could appreciate their work.

There are so many thoughts going through my head regarding this play. One of the main thoughts throughout this reading is how relevant this story is to today, 16 years later. I wonder what she was thinking, feeling and experiencing (the experiences of her friends and family too) while creating this piece and what she hoped for as far as the public reaction, and possible societal changes.

This story is so amazing because Heidi is so persecuted by the public, her friends and almost herself because of the decisions she makes in her life and the stand she takes for women YET you the people who decided to make the more “popular”, “traditional”, and selfish decisions are just as unhappy as Heidi is or worse.

There are so many questions and subtle emotions to be explored in this play and so many behaviors, underlying themes, and characters. Touching on our last discussion in class about needs I think that the exploration of the needs of each character is ESSENTIAL when taking on the responsibility of playing any of the characters because it appears as if the decisions made by the characters are strongly based in their needs, not their intellectual thoughts (as most humans).

I don’t know if I have the bravery to play a character like Heidi because maybe she is very much like me and it might make me look at myself in ways I don’t want to. In a superficial way I would enjoy to play someone like Susan because in my head I see myself like her; a lady about her friends, who supports the “cause”, yet plays both sides and still likes to indulge in the superficiality of men, high powered careers, etc. But is it crime to want to indulge in the “better things in life”? I don’t think it necessarily is if you still fight for what you believe in and uphold your morals but the reality is that you will always have to compromise by chasing men and careers because there will always be situations where you are not upholding your beliefs while participating in this lifestyle.

I really envy Heidi because although she seems unhappy at times or is unhappy in the eyes of others she stands for what she believes in and follows it through completely. Heidi dedicated her life to her beliefs and promoted that lifestyle. Heidi is brave and strong, but also vulnerable to the weaknesses and vices of the world like men. She has to deprive herself of the desires of her humanly flesh like men but her deprivation is just because she doesn’t desired to be exploited or treated unjustly for the sake of “love”. It is especially hard for Heidi to submit to the world and its values or her friends because they do not share her values and even thought they are her friends they don’t stand up for what’s right in her eyes.

I am also similar to Heidi in the sense that many of my relationships with others, especially my close friends are dysfunctional. My friends and I can love each other as much as anybody but we still see each other very rarely, we can hardly get in contact with each other, and we don’t always agree or support the ideas of each other (they especially don’t understand me and my career) but yet we care for each other deeply and share a definite connection. I believe the connection between Heidi and her friends show her human side, her fears, her tenderness, and really bring the “realness” out of everyone.

*The painting introductions before the acts… so interesting, the way she explains them, her reasoning, how they relate to her and life.

*The obvious privilege of the characters. From the Ivy League colleges, how that affects their perspective of the period.

*How the period of history and current events (McCarthy era/John Lennon murder) affect the ideas of the characters and how story progresses through time with the changes in the society (Homosexuality) and fashion/music (R-E-S-P-E-C-T), lol.

*The acknowledgement of the media’s affect on the public (Boomer Magazine).

Fences by August Wilson

It is such an honor to read this play considering only a week ago I didn’t know any of Mr. Wilson’s work. I believe that Mr. Wilson passed recently and I remember seeing tributes about him but it didn’t really carry much significance because I didn’t know him. I am proud to expand my knowledge and learn about legends like Mr. Wilson.

Fences is a play that has many different layers and themes but overall is a story of a normal traditional family and its dysfunction. In a way this family reminds me of mine and race isn’t the only similarity. But upon further review I think this story relates to families across races and maybe has more to do with class and generational differences.

Troy Maxson would be considered a “good” man in my eyes and in the eyes of many other people because he has taken care of his family, responsibilities, and fought for his beliefs (wanting to be a driver) but alternately it is his history or negative past experiences that harm his family.

My father wasn’t as responsible as Troy Maxson and didn’t take care of his family. Troy was honorable because he worked everyday doing hard work to provide for his family. Mr. Maxson also appreciated his wife and acknowledged that she was the best thing that happened to him. Unfortunately Troy’s selfishness leads him to betray his wife and forces her to clean up his mess by raising his daughter. Troy also takes the money of his sick brother and uses it to buy his home (I also have a sick uncle with money that my father tried to get). These examples of selfishness in additional to Troy’s disapproval of Cory’s (Troy & Rose’s son)sports aspirations harm their relationship and nullify any positive opinion that Cory might have had of his father (Lyons already has hard feelings toward his father). Troy’s past experiences and the way he was raised affect his family very negatively. Like always the woman must step in and clean up the mess.

Rose Maxson is an amazing woman and role that I would love to play. Rose has the perfect balance of strength standing up for what she believes in whether is the cheating of her husband or supporting her son’s dreams but she also displays the traditional submissiveness and loyalty of a wife and sticks up for husband after his passing. Rose has the burden of supporting her husband and creating a home out of what scraps they have. She creates a home for her husband, son, brother-in-law, while also making her husbands son, daughter and friends feel welcome.

At the end of the day Troy does leave a lovely legacy of memories, charming stories, songs and an amazing family. Everything comes full circle with Mr. Death finally getting Troy, Gabe’s prophecy coming true, the family living happily like Troy really wanted, and Lyon having a gig. I think the ending is very satisfying for all. And the title, what does it stand for? The song/hopes that Rose sings/desires, the job/commitment that Troy won’t do, or the unspoken boundary that is between the Maxson’s and the outside world until Troy’s death?

Angels Fall by Lanford Wilson

I chose the book Angels Fall before I learned that we should try to read the more well known books of each author. Thus Angels Fall might not be as well known as the others but it still presents similar human issues and obstacles.

Some books instantly pull me in while others take me a moment to understand and grasp the theme. Most notably the plays where there seems to me a considerable amount of chatter and dysfunction I can get lost in the back and forth and cannot see the underlying “truth”.

In Angels Fall there are three sets of people who are somewhat at odds with each other, themselves but nonetheless are all working from a very loving or caring perspective although it may not seem that way.

Niles and Vita Harris seem like a very cute and loving couple despite their constant back and forth. One would think that Niles is indeed crazy as his colleagues have labeled him but I don’t get that feeling from him. I feel that Niles is an educated man that is jaded by the system and has happily given in and let the stress of it all be manifested in his behavior. He obviously still has all his marbles because he uses them to lecture young Don about his decisions and talk to Marion about her famous late husband. Niles has merely submitted to the lunacy in his head created by the battle between his beliefs, disappointments, the system and his colleagues and the hot weather has pushed him along with the others to the extreme. Vita Harris is a knowledgeable woman who has taken on the task of caring for her husband. Vita is smart, cool, and at times relishes in the lunacy but always manages to keep everyone in the reality of the situation.

I don’t really identify with anyone is the play but if I were to play anyone I would like to play Vita because I like the many sides to her personality and her ability to indulge in the diva/ludicrous fits as a result of their being stranded but she can also reason very well and pull the reality out of how things “appear”. I also like the Don the young half-breed Native American pre-med student.

Don is a kid who is stuck in the middle between the reservation, the myths, the sickness and injustice and the gift of knowledge, privileged of a pre-med education and the opportunity to escape the burden of the reservation.

I can really relate to feeling alienated by your people because you are different (eve though being different is necessarily bad) but on the other hand these same people that damn you expect, want, demand, and need your help. You do have somewhat of a humanly responsibility to your people and furthermore that may even be your purpose even though you aren’t sure or necessarily know it but it is obvious you are “different” or “special”. The burden of this on Don’s shoulders makes him act erratically because he does not want the responsibility or maybe feels he cannot handle it but in the same token he is the first to confront the law enforcement when he hears about the mine accident. Will the bright lights of working in California for a famous doctor stray him from his purpose, will he ever find his purpose and the belonging he is secretly searching for?

Underneath the personal dysfunctions of all the characters there are other really important messages such as even though all of them arrived with their separate smugness and issues they are all related by the similar struggles that are challenging but none more challenging than the injustices suffered by the people of the reservation at the hands of the federal government. How many times do we all suffer quietly in our own pity but realistically it could never equal the injustices that many people suffer everyday.

Friday, March 31, 2006

The Country Girl

The Country Girl begins, ends and revolves around the theatre. You have to wonder where all of the characters would be if it weren’t for the theatre. It is obvious that the lives of the characters have suffered immensely because of their work, the marriages of Frank & Bernardo, but their work is what keeps them alive. Besides where could they hide all of their problems if the façade of artistry wasn’t there?

I would like to say that there isn’t much substance to this play because the undertones are so obvious to me, but maybe less is more. Although I admit that it at times it is hard to distinguish who is torturing who, or who loves who.

Georgie & Frank Elgin are an older couple that have been through many triumphs and obstacles in their life that have taken a huge toll on them both.

Georgie plays the role of a devoted wife and caretaker but not without a very sharp tongue and plenty of sarcasm. The years of insecurity, instability, and drinking of Frank have left her resentful of their marriage. Of course she loves and stands by her husband because they once had a great life together and also suffered the loss of a child together but Frank’s inability to be a man and give his wife love and security force her to step in that role. Georgie looks out for the interests of Frank and is a liaison for him between his colleagues but her assertiveness proves to be a threat to them instead. Mrs. Elgin is tough though and the aggression against her by her husband and others is no fear to her. She is a woman who has lived with a drunk for 20 years, survived the life as an actor’s wife, and overcome the loss of her only child. All Georgie seems to want is to get through the day and dodge and contain the wild fires that continuously sprout in her life with Frank but as they reach a renewed level of success Georgie comes out of the shadows to announce her interests for once and declare that she will not go another day unfulfilled. The woman who is frowned upon and villianize throughout the whole play maintains her control but is able to leverage it for her own interests this time.

Frank Elgin the drunken mess and thorn in the side of everyone is also the savior and brilliant performer that pulls a play from a gutter. The gutter is a good word to describe the life of Frank. Once upon a time Mr. Elgin had a great career and a great family. Sadly the failure of his own production, death of his child, and failed film career pushed him to the bottle that he hasn’t been able to kick since. Constantly needing coddling and stroking to do anything Frank makes life unbearable for all around him. His changing personalities, pride, and insecurities put him the middle of all the people around him pinning Bernardo against his wife, and Mr. Cook against Bernardo. He brings the worst out of an already young and unstable Bernie and feeds his habit of smoking. The charm he displays is very honorable but he doesn’t have the substance to back it up so it falls flat on the ears of all, his wife, Bernie, Mr. Cook, and his cast. The crossing between the realms of reality, past, present and fantasy are detrimental to his credibility but at the same time it is exactly that which restores his credibility on the stage. Of course he must be blown with hot air via fake wires from his wife and Bernie to stay in the sky but when he is there life is a little more bearable for all.

The Threepenny Opera

I have been making a really bad habit of reading books that are not on the “Book List”. I am not doing this in purpose but I have hard time getting to the library to get the requested books before it closes at 7:30PM. Thus I have been reading whatever books I can bum off friends. Up until now it was working okay considering I was getting some really good books but this week I got more than I bargained for.

The Threepenny Opera by the famous artist Brecht is a mixture of a theatrical play and opera.

On first thoughts the play appeared to be somewhat of a circus with weird characters that seemed liked novelties for entertainment purposes. With the addition of the musical numbers/ songs it added to the theatrics of an already weird play. Yet more and more I learn that underneath all text in every play there is more meaning and messages than expected.

The women of the play Mrs. Peachum, Polly, and whores played the stereotypical roles of weak women. Although they did have their moments of strength and brains in general they were either dutiful wives or sex objects. Mrs. Peachum the woman of household is in charge of doing the menial sewing jobs for her husbands business and taking care of her daughter. When her daughter, Polly, who more and more seems a lot like her mother looking for love in the arms of a man who is a con-man, gets married things get turned upside down. Mrs. Peachum is forced to take charge in finding her daughter and rectifying a situation that she is partially responsible for by leaving her along with a man because he looked nice with his white gloves and cane. Using her female instinct Mrs. Peachum knows where to find Macheath, at the home of his whores. Forming a short bond with the whores she convinces them to turn on their beloved Mackie and helps with the capture of him.

Polly a young woman very similar to her mother falls for a con-man. Despite the controversy she revels in the unhealthy relationship and refuses to leave him even after he disrespects her publicly. The same tactics that Mrs. Peachum uses to align with the whores, Polly uses to align with Lucy. At first she goes to Lucy to get information but later to come together as women that were hurt and loved by the con-man.

The men of The Threepenny Opera appear to be honest hardworking gentlemen who care for their family but deep down they are insecure con-men. Mr. Peachum with his business seems like a self-made man who built up a business helping others. Mr. Peachum identified a group of people who are marginalized by society and helped them to organize in a manner where they can be more successful at what they do. Mr. Peachum has a definite sense of self-righteousness and loathes people like the whiny messy beggars and the crook Macheath. The biggest oxymoron is that perhaps Mr. Peachum is just as much of a crook as Macheath and finds himself in a bad situation when he is confronted by Brown about his business.

Macheath and his crooks are a bunch of thieves and murderers. They rob, steal, and set afire to anything they can get their hands on. They are not honest men who work for what they have and I wonder if any of them have even ever had a legitimate job. Despite their profession the guys seems like a very loyal guys who only do what they do to survive, not for the fun of it. Furthermore they stand by the side of Mac no matter what and he makes sure that they are taken care of no matter what. All of the guys have women in their lives and seem to really care for them even though you would think they were brutes. They know that they are crooks but in reality there is really no difference between them, Mr. Peachum or the head of police Mr. Brown. The reality is that whether common man or crook everyone is guilty of selfish behaviors that help some while hurting others.

Monday, March 20, 2006

The Glass Menagerie

Although I am an acting student my actual exposure to classic literature and plays has been minimal. I did graduate from a great liberal arts college and studied mass media (one theatre course) but anything I learned then and in the past has completely escaped me. Now that I have found my way to New York City, regained focus and began studying again I am very happy to begin this new exploration of classic theatre.

The Glass Menagerie was filled with contradictions, symbolism and clichés that make any play interesting for an audience and actor.

Beginning with the Production Notes which explain the play shouldn’t be “trying to escape its responsibility of dealing with reality” by using unconventional techniques. I totally agree with the statement which is kind of parallel to the teachings of Meisner which is based in the “truth” of a circumstance. Even though these circumstances are obviously fake it is the “truthful”’ emotions and behaviors that make the play, this play so alluring. Contradictory, the desired lighting from the same Production notes from the play are NOT realistic, creating an angelic silhouette of the fragile Laura. In this case I believe that the use of this artificial technique is to contribute to the symbolism of the play which can help the audience experience the desired effect nicely.

From the title to the lighting and props the theme of Laura’s fragility is intertwined throughout the piece. You almost want to pity Laura but that would be looking at her from an outsider point-of-view. My natural feeling of empathy toward Laura and her circumstance makes her character challenging to play because of the depth of her pain. I DO think that a piece of Laura is inside of me but the search for that piece would prove to be an emotionally difficult task. The difficulty I feel I would experience is the recognizing of an emotion that you generally try to dismiss and the way I would have to live with that constant feeling of defeat.

The feeling of defeat not only is within the heart of Laura but it also is permeating from her brother, and mother. Questionably both Laura and Tom have been damaged by their mother’s inability to accept failure and move on or her inability to allow them to simply be themselves. Tom might not be a “cripple” as Laura but his situation is very crippling to his creativity and any dreams, desires or feelings he has as a young man.

I don’t see a direct parallel between Tom & I although I could imagine what it would be like to be in his position. I also do not find a parallel between Amanda & I either, I don’t think I have seen in my life someone with such a sickness although I have seen people who have some of the elements of her character. The person who I identify with the most on a basic level would be Jim. I know how it feels to be successful yet have everyone turn on you. I also am a very optimistic person who frequently plays the role of cheerleader or motivator. It would be quite an interesting experience for me to cheer someone up like Laura but to then pull myself away because I am faithfully dedicated to someone else. I think the scene between Laura and Jim is delightful because I am emotionally connected to both roles. Together they make for a sweet interaction that in my eyes would be pleasing to both actors and the audience as well.

The Children's Hour

Again this was another play that dealt with many issues that are uncomfortable. The more and more I read these classical plays I notice that the themes are quite strong and controversial almost. I understand that one of the purposes of theatre and other forms of arts are to discuss what is going on in our culture. Thus these mediums have given many people a voice. I can’t help but feel slightly uncomfortable though when I first begin reading these materials. On the flip side these characters are very multi-faceted and challenging which makes for good theatre, good work, and in most cases Oscars & Emmys!!

(Can I also add it is amazing that these plays discuss the issues that they do in what I considered very conservative times in our history? What is even more jarring is that we are still struggling with the issues today. I guess that connection between the past and now is what gives these plays their legs to make it to the present, and their recognition as classics.)

I, as probably most of the audience had no idea of the depth of any of the characters from the initial scene. I was very caught off guard by the complexity and cunningness of Mary’s character. I do not relate to her by any means because her character is quite vulgar (someone you love to hate). But as they say about quiet people (they are secretly psychopaths), I would love to play a character like hers. To have the opportunity to play a villain and let my Mr. Hyde side emerge would be a fun and challenging experience.

I also could see myself playing one of her classmates because they seem so cute and innocent, what a fun age. BUT I don’t relate to them letting her push them around so that would be another situation where I would be playing someone opposite of myself. Although I enjoy playing roles that I am or can relate to I am beginning to see that I am also open to playing roles that I have no connection to. I am learning that the beauty of performance is you get an opportunity to be many people, and represent different people.

Martha & Karen are also two fun characters. I think that Karen’s situation is unique but overall she strikes me as a very well-rounded adult woman. The interesting thing is that as normal as she is her character is principal role proving you don’t have to be crazy to be a principle. I would like to play her and see how she handles her various relationships (Martha, Joe, students) and as a result becomes a pawn in between them all.

Martha & Mrs. Mortar are two bats that I want no part of. Their neurosis, narcissism, would make me annoyed of not only them but of myself.

The Little Foxes

In my Thursday night insomnia I decide to lay in bed and “get into” my latest play. I could either read the book little by little, or let myself be pulled in and finish it off in one whim. Well last night was a whimsical, focused, determined, “acting” night (much like my life has become).

I have to say that in many cases I still approach these plays with expectations or preconceived notions that I must make an effort to break because they prevent me from seeing other things and lead me down a road to believe something about the characters or story itself that isn’t necessarily true.

Pathetically I went through almost all of the play thinking in my head that these characters were black when in fact the smart, thoughtful, and unfortunate slaves Addie and Cal were the only “negros” of the play. I am not sure whether it was the southern dialect, words and behavior of the characters that made me think they were black or that in my head I saw actual black characters (I still think Black characters could play these parts, that is wonderful). Anyway that is just an example of how I need to not make assumptions and pay even closer attention and FOCUS!

Sweet, sweet Birdie. What an amazing character, woman and spirit. Like a Southerner “I sho would enjoy to play a role like that”. I think she is amazing, all of her different sides, her personality, her talent and most importantly her history. Even though her situation is sad, it is a very emotionally and physically challenging role that would be a great experience. Coming from a good family that seemed loving, caring, honorable, and RICH afforded sweet Birdie many benefits such as the culture of traveling, having parties, studying music, and enjoying nice things like clothing, amazing estates and servants. Even though Birdie grew up with many benefits you get the impression that she had a very loving family that instilled that in her, and instilled also other morals as far as treating other people with respect, all people. Unfortunately being a woman in that period she was unable to really prevent the loss of her estate, by marrying Oscar, she can’t express herself, and basically has no say in the decisions of her house. Birdie’s only piece of peace is when she with other “foreigners”, Horace and Alexandra (her in-law and niece), and her slaves. She is even estranged from her own son because I believe he is the middle of the good (Birdies), and bad (Oscar).

The Hubbards, or shall I say the “Sharks”. These cold-hearted people who live ONLY to make money and get over on others even their BLOOD “kin” continuously go in a cycle of bickering with each other, still struggling even after all these years. The Hubbards are a working class family who started at the bottom BUT started their own business. It is admirable how they came from nothing BUT it is NOT admirable how they got to where they are. They made their money off of over changing those less fortunate, using people (their spouses/family) to get what they want, and basically treating other people the way they were once treated (Oscar hitting his wife like a slave), thus continuing the negative cycle. Everyone knows the Hubbards are wretched including themselves, thus they stand firmly and confidently in their space and with no shame.

I would enjoy playing all of the females; Regina, Birdie, or Alexandra (even Addie if I was old enough).

The sweetest moments of the play are when Birdie is enjoying herself and reminiscing.

The most tense and climatic scenes are when the Hubbards are plotting, and you are witnessing their pathetic desperation.

This play masterfully evokes a rainbow of emotions, thoughts, and situations. It is very well written and I was very pleased.

A Streetcar named Desire

I really enjoyed reading the above play. I didn’t have any expectation or preconceived notions so I went into it blind. Although based on the previous plays I have read I expected somewhat of a drama or dramatic characters.

From the very beginning the story seemed to unfold little by little, almost too slow. I had not idea what was around the corner and had to adjust to the slow pace. I also think that reading the play is very different because I have to take into account and imagine the characters and their little idiosyncrasies which I know would make the play more interesting to me, as opposed to the text.

The environment of New Orleans, the music, the bi-level home were very warm. The existence of housemates (Eunice) and friends (Pablo, Hispanic characters???, Yay!!), activities (bowling, poker) made the play very complete in the sense that they lived in a “real” world to me.

The beauty of all of the characters is that they initially “seemed” one way but as time unfolded the depth of their characters and human dysfunction emerged. I love Eunice, her loud mouth. I really love all of the guys, their human masculinity and male “stupidity”.

Stella is an amazingly sweet, innocent/child like, simple young woman. Accustomed to and happy with her new “peasant” life, she relishes in the simplicity. Loving a headstrong, foreign male, pregnant and building a new life, Stella is complete and submits. The arrival of her sister makes her doubt her past, family, and only living relative. This doubt and tug-of-war between her sister and husband make her uneasy around both overcompensating by bowing down to her sister and being tense toward her husband.

Blanche, obviously a woman uncomfortable with herself, her past, her secrets but hiding it by blaming it on her age, appearance or the torture of having to live a new “peasant” life. She takes out her insecurities on others and treats them badly or manipulates them to make them feel bad for her. Or so it seems. Stanley consistently hints to the “lies” of Blanche but the depth of her sickness isn’t realized to the end. Her past relationships, failures, and familiar responsibilities are blamed for her sickness. You have to wonder how “sick” she really is because when confronted by Stanley she turns off the “puppy” act and talks very frankly with Mitch about her dreams for the future. It is very amusing how she can make a situation hers and make it work to her advantage. Her innocent and high-maintenance acts are a very good concealing act BUT her sickness cannot hide in the hot Louisiana heat.

A Raisin in the Sun

When reading Raisin in the Sun I didn’t know how to respond initially. While reading it felt like a cross between being drawn in voyeuristically into a pitiful train wreck and also watching what could be my life unfolding before my eyes.

I began to feel a little uncomfortable because the story has parallels to my life or people I know. That being “too close for comfort” feeling was rampant and made it a little difficult to read because of my foreshadowing of a tragic ending. In the same token I couldn’t exactly predict what would happen at the end because of how the story moves.

After getting past the voyeuristic feeling I really began to identify with Ruth Younger. I have seen and known characters like Walter Younger and can identify with his “dreams” but the way he goes about achieving them and treating others is NOT me. Although his behavior reminds me of many Black men I know and it is very much a sad sight to see. I also know of a Beneatha, Mama, & Travis Younger. Their characters/roles are very common/stereotypical in the Younger family but without them the impact of the decisions/behavior of Walter Younger wouldn’t be so profound in the play. In the center of everything is Ruth.

Ruth is becoming the new “centerpiece” of the family as Mama Younger gets older and can no longer relate to her children. As the “center” of her family with Travis & Walter she makes sure they are taken care of. As the “centerpiece” of the small apartment she is a liaison between her family and Mama & Beneatha. Ruth is a woman with many responsibilities and burdens as she tries to keep her family/marriage together yet, she is still at the mercy of her mother-in-law (living in her home) and so she doesn’t fully enjoy and can’t be the mother/wife/woman she wants to be. The delicate balance that Ruth constantly has to maintain wears on her womanhood, her heart & soul, and physical being. Like Walter, Ruth has many dreams as well but being the caretaker she must be realistic and that reality is what hardens her. I really like this character and the many emotions from sad, tired, hopeless, cynical, joy, etc. she displays.

Magically and sadly the appearance of money changes everything in the Younger family and makes their dreams seem closer. The hope given to the family with the arrival of the “check” breathes life into the family. But as we know money CANNOT be the centerpiece of any family or dream because it can easily be taken away. Too bad the Youngers have to experience that the hard way.

The Death of a Salesman

Initially I didn’t know what to think about this play. I see the huge Pulitzer Prize medal on the cover and automatically have high hopes. I wouldn’t say it didn’t live up to its”medal” but I enjoyed other plays more.

The character Willy is a very infectious, warm and sweet person initially. You have to admire and love a character that is so hopeful, has such a positive outlook and extends that to others. I would assume that any person like this would indeed be successful but then you start to wonder many things. Where is the line drawn between Willy’s hopes and dreams and reality? Can he even distinguish between the two?

Instead of helping his friends, family and colleagues, have his desires and dreams instead harm them and their relationships?

The weaving of the past into the present is very useful in giving us clues about the present situation.

I believe that most things/habits/problems start at the very beginning and maybe being raised by a single mother after his father left is what gave Willy the underlying insecurity about success and finances that has plagued his whole life, family and relationships.

Upon further thought this reminds me of my grandfather who was (among 8? brothers and sisters) left orphaned at a young age in the south after both his parents died. Their land and all of their belongings were taken from them and thus he started at a young age working, always trying to find the newest “get rich quick” trick to compensate for the past. Even on his deathbed my grandfathered worried about our (my families) financial well-being. I guess the difference between our family and theirs is my grandmother came from a working class family and had an excellent education and work history. As apposed to Linda who sat around per the pride of her husband, my grandmother secretly and publicly established her own solid career and morals which she passed on to us. Thus although my family did support each other and have high hopes and dreams like Willy we knew that only hard work would get us there and this was passed on from generation to generation.

I really like the characters of both Happy and Biff but I think they lived the mistake of thinking they were untouchable and those materialistic values would make them and their father happy. Even though Willy did “blow them full of hot air” the older they got they should have taken responsibility of their lives. Their selfishness, much like their father, partially prevented that. I would not blame Willy for their mistakes even though he was flawed.

Maybe the era had something to do with their attitude.

I would like to play the character of Linda because it does not come natural to me to be a submissive person and I think it would be interesting to explore that point of view and emotional being.

The Rainmaker

I know this book wasn’t on the list but I had a strong desire to read it. I did a scene from this play in my last class but was encouraged NOT to read it or do any background search on the characters. I agree with this decision because it helped me to make my own decisions based on what was provided to me, and from what I can tell we made good decisions. I do believe my decisions would’ve been slightly different with the other information.

The Curry family seems like an honorable and working-class family. I love all of the characters, the way the story is written, just EVERYTHING.

H.C. Curry is a very light-hearted, caring father figure that supports his kids, enjoys life but also worries about his farm & daughter. H.C. provides his children with support, acknowledgement and is very much the “voice of reason” in the household.

Noah Curry seems to be a hardened/jaded individual. I am not sure if it was the burden of growing up and being responsible for a farm or maybe never having the love of a mother that hardened him. Because of the authority he has on the farm he goes a step further and uses those same skills at home which don’t translate favorably. You cannot use the same skills at work as you do with your FAMILY and this misinterpretation harms both Jimmy & Lizzie emotionally. (Is he scared of failure or feels like a failure and thus puts others down?)

Jimmy Curry is a young kid who loves life and enjoys it. Jimmy also loves his family and even looks up to his older brother Noah but he is unable to break out on his own with his own thoughts and confidence because he is constantly put down. Jim knows what he feels, thinks and likes and when he follows that, he’s at his best.

Lizzie Curry is a bright, educated, groomed young woman who plays maid, cook and seamstress. Keeping the family moving and functional has been her duty all her life. Even though she has a very supportive father she never had another woman or mother in the house and has raised herself. Having never been looked at in a romantic way by a male has given her low self-esteem and pushed her into her own world where she has focused on her studies and home life. Her biological clock is ticking and she knows it along with everyone else. Deep in her heart Lizzie knows she is a wonderful woman but if someone doesn’t re-affirm that for her real soon she will lose hope. I LOVE Lizzie and would love to play her again!!!

Starbuck breezes into town with the mission of taking advantage of the Curry’s but in the midst saves the farm & Lizzie. It is amazing to me how a con-man can give “good” people what they need to continue. He teaches everyone a lesson about life and hope, even Noah. As Starbuck gives Lizzie & the farm what they need, they in return give him what he needs, a family, confidence and feeling of belonging. Although all of these moments are very short-lived they leave a lasting impression that affects all of the characters.

I love the romance of the play and the basic morals that people need people, love, hope, and faith to life happily. If we face our problems, accept them; accept others things will work their way out.

It is amazing to me how Lizzie, Noah and File were so cruel at first but how they changed. Lizzie gained confidence, Noah saw that everything didn’t have to always be “right”, and File learned that you can be accepted as you are (despite your past). Ironically Lizzie and File both suffered from similar issues but they were hidden, Lizzie behind her book and apron and File behind his uniform.

I Love H.C. and how he takes the risk with Starbuck knowing that he is fake, but recognizes that even if he doesn’t help the farm he will help Lizzie. H.C. is an amazing father figure and his plan works better than he could imagines and demonstrates to all of his family what life is about.

The Fifth of July

The Fifth of July is a play so busy with chatter that it could be hard to really understand what the chatter means because it is so loud. In acting you are taught to look beneath the surface and find the “real” meanings of the text and behavior. In this play it is ESSENTIAL that you pay close attention so you can catch the serious undertones that are responsible for the constant chatter. (Even the meaning of the title gets lost in the chatter).

The strong characteristics and intricacies of each character sets them apart into a mess of their own but it is the relationship and connection between them all that makes the depth of their dysfunction even greater.

Sally, Ken, June & Shirley; all related but nevertheless don’t appear much closer than the other members of the group. The tension between them all is so thick you could “cut it with a knife”.

Sally with her feelings of old age and abandonment, and additionally her estrangement from being married to a “Jew”.

Ken with his many issues beginning with growing up in a very volatile time in the United States (War, this affects all of the 2nd generation characters) his homosexuality and feelings for John, the abandonment by his friends which possibly contributes to him making a decision that will impact his life for forever, going to war. Ken returns from war with all of the scars that any veteran has plus the physical scars of being crippled, a paraplegic, a handicap and constantly running from the fact even though there is no way he can actually do it (no pun intended).

June Talley, another casualty of the volatile Vietnam war uprising in the United States. Idealistic June follows her dream of making a “difference” in the U.S. during this tough time but in the midst has to leave her child behind to be cared for by her Aunt Sally. The abandonment has created an unusual and uncomfortable relationship between June and her young, rebellious, attention-hungry, idealistic daughter Shirley. June returns jaded by her dream (maybe also the relationship between Gwen & John contributed? father of Shirley?) to care for a raucous daughter that on closer review is a lot like her mother. The Talley family is constantly at each others throat until their last foundation is at risk, their estate.

John, Gwen & Weston are a mess of their own but John seems the most at odds of them all. All childhood friends, the tension between Ken, June, John & Gwen makes you question “what happened”? John is obviously the devil’s advocate abandoning and having relationships with both Ken & June but later ditches them for the “Copper Queen” Gwen. Ken & June appear to have some feeling of resentment against Gwen but also seem to have pity and love for her because of her innocence and truth. Gwen is very truthful, giving, and living and is only a product of her wealthy upbringing. Despite John’s deception he keeps Gwen happy with support and even though all don’t approve it is evident that that all she needs to continue.

To do this play successfully I think all must be rooted in their character with a keen awareness for the greater relationship. I like Gwen’s character the most : )

Friday, March 10, 2006

Testing............. Yayyy another title under my belt

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